Archive for September, 2009

September 11, 2009

Posted in Uncategorized on September 11, 2009 by TheGodfather

Since i woke up today i’ve been doing nothing but thinking about what happened on this day 8 years ago, and it amazes me that there is still a big hole where the towers once stood. But not much i can do to fix that and me ranting here really isn’t going to get anything done so i’ll move on to those cowards. So you thought that you could bring America to it’s knees by attacking us the way you did. Well we were on bend and knee for a short time but not for long, we got back up and dusted ourselves off and we came and started to rain hell down upon you. You see today i saw that the stock market closed the same as September 10, 2001. It took us 8 yrs but we are getting back to how things were. It’s a good feeling, but i hope to God we don’t go back into the same mindset of back in 2001, the same thinking, and what not. well i guess that’s it except for a message to anyone who is thinking about doing something like that again to us in America. Here’s a little messeage for you…..

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A not so happy labor day weekend

Posted in Uncategorized on September 7, 2009 by TheGodfather

So part of this entry comes to you from a hospital bed. Saturday after I cut the grass, something inside me snapped i guess you could say, I don’t know what it was, the stress of not being able to find a job, the fact my whole family thinks i’m a failure, the fact that I was using my parents ATM card to buy cigarette’s and soda while i’ve been unemployed parents telling me they are calling the cops and i’m going to go sit in jail, I don’t know i’ll i know is i started popping pills left and right, some of my mom’s blood thinners, and 2 sheets worth of Benadryl, and started drinking heavily. I wanted my life to be over so I could stop being a burden on everyone that I know or anyone who has ever met me. I was about to take a knife to my arm(down the road not across the street) when my cousin kicked in my bedroom door and stopped me. He threw me in his truck and took me to the ER with the rest of my family following. Everyone would of been better off if they would of just left me be is what I was thinking to myself as i was wheeled into the hospital. Doctors and nurses were scrambling around asking questions, if i’ve been drinking, how many pills i took, where my family found me ect. ect. then they proceed to bring in the stomach pump machine. after awhile they stopped that and gave me some charcoal stuff. then begins the 48 hour suicide watch, luckily the head IT guy at the hospital is a member of my mom’s church and he hooked me up with a hospital laptop connected to the internet so i could surf the web if i wanted to, i listened to alot of music via youtube, plurked here and there, and sat there for a day wishing no one would of stopped me. The next day the pastor at my mom’s church came to see me. I don’t know this man so i threw the empty plastic basin/bed pan whatever the hell it is at him to told him to get the fuck out. he did and stood in the hallway talking to my family. Why would i want to talk to some fuck stick i don’t even know? well alittle later that afternoon i started “cheering” up i guess you could say, i was looking for stupid shit on youtube. Talked to a friend on yahoo, told her what was going on cause i needed someone to talk to. then sunday night came and it’s the usual, nurses in and out checking on me, asking how i’m doing, checking my vitals. So they let me come home today if i promised to call the outpatient treatment place at the nuthouse. I did just so i could get out of there(also asked if i could take the bed with me) but i’m not calling shit. i can’t afford treatment or therapy, and i’ll be damned if i’m getting another thing on my credit report to fuck it up more then it already is. So now i’m home, in my room, back on my laptop. staring at the 2 empty sheets of Benadryl i took two days ago. but i will say this….I want to know who cleaned my room while i was in the hospital? I can’t find shit in here now. ah well i guess i’m still alive and “should” be happy about that. but i’m not i still have the thoughts swimming around in the back of my head. well that’s it. that’s my story, that’s the thing i was talking about on plurk alittle while ago when i said alot of people will unfriend me and all that. now you all know, but i’m back from the grave. Stomach still hurts like hell from the stomach pump but i guess it’s what i get.

Posted in Uncategorized on September 5, 2009 by TheGodfather

This is the End….

Posted in Uncategorized on September 5, 2009 by TheGodfather

Don’t Forget

Posted in Uncategorized on September 5, 2009 by TheGodfather

Why does my life suck

Posted in Uncategorized on September 1, 2009 by TheGodfather

well i’ve been unemployed now since april and i finally broke down and went to reapply with a company i use to work for. I figure that i had to do something, so it’s been a week and i’ve heard nothing, i’ll give them a call tomorrow. In other news, i might be going to jail soon, keep getting calls from someone claiming i’m being charged with fraud for taking a pay day advance from a place i do no recall going to, and I won’t call them back because I will not be the victim of a scam, which I’ve heard this kind of thing has been happening lately, ah well if i go to jail i go if not oh well all i can say is bring it bitches. hmmm what else has been happening a whole lot of nothing i guess, it’s a daily routine of waking up, plurking, twittering, playing WoW. god my life sucks. i’ve thought of just leaving my house and live on the streets since it seems like that is what my life is destined for(can’t pass any tests for my microsoft certification and now that time has passed so i’ll have to pay for each test and it’s like $150 so screw that.) maybe i should try a study at home at your own pace type of deal but who knows. Let’s see if i can add any happy news here…..um…..uh……hmmm imagine that, none at this point. ah well life sucks then you die, TIME FOR SOME BEER! i’ll probably post more when i get around to it. this has made my head hurt lol